Emotional and emotionless – A thousand dying sunsets

Every day we experience many different emotions. We meet new people and learn new things. We rely on our emotions to make friends or enemies. It is what defines us as humans but what some people don’t notice is that our emotions can lead to our own destruction. So, why exactly were we given these emotions if they cause a wide range of effects depending on your personality and your experiences? Simple. We’re only human and it’s impossible to show no emotion. No matter how “tough” you are, there’s always going to be at least one thing that will trigger a random emotional response. It may be recalling the loss of a loved one, listening to music, daydreaming, sleeping. There’s so many different causes that i’d be sitting here forever trying to name them all.

Sometimes life can be tough and our emotions would deal with it in a negative way. We may often find ourselves falling into an endless pit of despair; like the world is going to end when in reality, it’s not. Our emotions cloud our brain and make things seem worse than they really are. Now I’m not saying that we should discard our emotions but we need to make sure that we have full control over them in order not to lose sight of what is real and what is just an illusion. Today I got to spend time with one of my most cherished friends. Her and I can relate in many ways. We’ve been hurt a lot but we still stand strong. We have our emotions to tank for that but without the power of willpower, our emotions would be set free and corrupt our mind and hearts. We understand each other’s pain but underneath all that fire and burning is a shiny gem that is waiting to be discovered. A diamond in a pile of coal.

“God knows what is hiding in this world of little consequence
Behind the tears, inside the lies
A thousand slowly dying sunsets
God knows what is hiding in those weak and drunken hearts
Guess the loneliness came knocking
No one needs to be alone, oh singin'”

– Birdy –

Behind the tears… inside all those lies… all that hurt. There is always a shining gem that keeps that person going. It’s their eternal flame that cannot be extinguished no matter what. Even the darkest people who are corrupted by darkness have a gem inside of them. There are those exist that have their gems ripped out of their being. Those people are at a point where all they know is true despair. Suicide in other terms. Their emotions have spiraled out of control and their last resort is eternal darkness where no one could reach them.

We are human and we were born with these emotions. You either let them destroy you or transform them to become a weapon.

Light and Dark: Two sides of the same coin

You know, I can’t help think and ponder about what light and dark really is. I guess some people see them as opposites but I see them as two entities that cannot exist without the other. Think about it, if there were wasn’t any darkness in this world, where would we learn and know the good things in life? It is within darkness where good things are born. The same goes for light. Through light, darkness is born. Two entities that cannot exist without the company of it’s opposite. There’s not really a good and evil in this world, there’s only people and the choices that they make. You could say that certain people have been corrupted by darkness and therefore do things that are considered as criminal or evil.

It’s the same for light because it is very possible to corrupt yourself with light and blind yourself from the truth or even people. Take religious extremists, they are so focused on their views and are blinded by the corruption of their “light”. I guess what I’m trying to say is that there is no such thing as being “truly good” and “truly evil”. There doesn’t exist a person without a mix of light and darkness within their hearts. I bet even the Pope has some sort of darkness within him.

Saying this, I don’t know what I am as a person. I am neither good or bad, light or dark. I’ve been exposed within the darkness ever since I was a small child but I never let it corrupt me. In fact, I harnessed that power of darkness within me to strengthen the small light that was inside of me. I’m not too sure if you guys would understand what I’m trying to say but… I guess what I’m trying to say is that equilibrium is needed in order to find true peace. Instead of trying to suppress and hide the darkness from within, let it flow through you but at the same time allowing your “light” to mix with the darkness, allowing yourself to be within both worlds. A perfect balance between light and darkness. From my experiences, my darkness within has taught me to be respectful, not judge others for wanting to be themselves and appreciate art at a personal level. Though it has ruined my self esteem and confidence, I wouldn’t have it any other way because I wouldn’t be who I am at the moment.


Good can easily turn to evil. Evil can easily turn into good. Light and dark are the two sides of the “equilibrium” coin. Don’t treat them as opposites but as brother and sister. Find true peace within yourself.

Don’t corrupt yourself with one side. You control your own life.