Trust is a thing that can be easily broken and when it does, you never can fully repair it. No matter how much better your relationship gets and no matter how many times you tell yourself that you have forgiven that person fully, your trust between that person will never be the same. Especially when you share or give something that is personal and precious to someone and all they do is mock you and laugh. I wouldn’t worry too much about it though, it’s just another obstacle and element of trust that we as humans must “get over”. We tend to give out our trust to those around us easily but it is easily broken. When you entrust something to someone thinking that they would at least have the respect to not completely disregard one’s feelings towards that object.
“Trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it’s broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother**cker’s reflection.”
– Lady Gaga –
It’s exactly how she say’s it but it all comes down to the limit of forgiveness each unique person has. Now, I tend to forgive a lot of people for many things, I can’t be forced to hate someone simply because they have wronged me in any way… but when it comes down to me personally and if people have a go at me for my attempts to help myself control my emotions and thoughts by writing or listening to music; well, I’m sorry but that is the limit of my personal forgiveness. You need to watch out to whom you give our your trust to. Some people are just out there to break it but you also need to consider forgiveness. You can’t stay mad/angry at someone forever.
On a lighter note, I had an amazing time with some of my most awesome friends tonight. A drive in the night with friends helps take me mind off a lot of things.
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Sometimes, you just need to block off all the negative thoughts/people around you. You’ve accepted them as they are, now it’s within you to not be affected by them/those negative energies anymore. Concentrate on the positives and think of this – “Holding onto anger is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die.”
You write so beautiful 🙂
It’s going to be hard to. I’ve grown up with all this negativity since a very small age. It’s also because of my extreme anxiety issues that I have. I can’t stay in crowds, it makes me sick.
Thank you for the compliment about writing! I write to help clear my mind and control my emotions in my day-to-day life. I’m considering writing books as a hobby but I don’t think I’m good enough for that. 😀
ohhhh I just read your ABOUT page.. I think you wrote this:
“Never give up on your dreams they’ll come true”
don’t forget that you said that. DREAM. BELIEVE. COMMIT. ACHIEVE.
no one is stopping you from anything but yourself 🙂
Yeah :D. I’ll never stop going for them nor give up on them. It’s just my fear that I have trouble coping with. Everything is easier said than done but I’m trying my best :D.
nobody is going to be good enough of anything if that’s the way they think. You need to change the way you view things and forget the negative people, the saboteurs.
Three simple rules to live by:
1. If you do not GO after what you want, You’ll never have it.
2. If you do not ASK the answer will always be no.
3. If you do not step FORWARD, you will always be in the same place.
Fuck the detractors. It’s your life and really, you have to make choices to make YOU happy. No one else. 🙂